"Who chose Hamas? The majority chose Hamas."
"I
said to myself, 'how can it be? On one side he [his grandfather]
invites them [Jewish neighbours] for food and drink, and on the other he
says to kill them'. From a young age I understood something is wrong."
"But
I knew the [IDF] soldiers, and they'd given me candy sometimes. They
don't have one eye in the forehead -- they aren't like that. The Jews
who came to the market in Khan Younis to give us food aid didn't have
one eye in the forehead. The Jews who came to the weddings of our
neighbours didn't have three legs or one eye in the forehead."
Ayman Abu Soobuch, Arab Muslim from Khan Younis/Dor Shacher, Israeli Jewish convert
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| “I
wanted to be a Jew because I chose life, I chose love and not hatred,”
says Dor Shachar, who was born Ayman Abu Soobuch, a Muslim in Gaza. Photo by Dave Gordon |
Ayman
Abu Soobuch was born in 1977 in Khan Younis, Gaza. As a boy an episode
that he found incomprehensibly puzzling led him to question the
prevailing attitudes he was exposed to with respect to the neighbours of
the Palestinians in the adjoining state of Israel. His grandfather
after cordially inviting Jews to his home to share his Palestinian
hospitality, would then turn around and urge his grandson to eventually "free the land"
by killing Jews. Palestinian Authority President Mahmoud Abbas is known
to expose Palestinian children to school curricula, children's
television programs and social media to the glories of martyrdom, to
aspire to jihad.
Among
the young boy's neighbours in Khan Younis were those who were to go on
to distinguish themselves as fearsome terrorists dedicated to the
extermination of the Jewish state and the murder of Jews, instilling the
fear of terrorism among a population they despised and as a death
cult, conspired to murder. These were now-well-recognizable names like
Yahya Sinwar, Mohammed Deif and Yahya Ayyash the bombmaker. "I knew them well (as) community faces" as well as others comprising Hamas, Islamic Jihad, Fatah and the PLO.
He
was aware that among his neighbours were those who killed; among them
his own brothers taking the call to jihad seriously. There was one
occasion in the open market when he witnessed Sinwar decapitating a
Palestinian man whom he had accused of collaborating with Israel, as a
crowd looked on and cheered. On one occasion when he was with his mother
at the market they came across a head lying in the street. "They said he was suspected of co-operating with Israel". Bystanders took no note of the grotesque scene, walking by unperturbed.
In reminiscing about his early growing years in Khan Younis he recalled television programs for children urging them to "go and kill the Jews". Sheikhs in mosques shouting that the killing of Jews represented "the greatest commandment" as "Allah's will". UNRWA (the UN's United Nations Relief and Works Agency for Palestine Refugees) schools had very similar curricula informing students that Jews were "pigs dogs and infidels", undeserving of life, as monstrosities with three legs and a single eye in their forehead.
"Every
child learned how to throw stones at Jews because they teach it. The
teacher would tell us to go out and throw stones, then come back and
open books as though we were studying. When the soldiers came, they saw
little children studying. After the soldiers left, the teachers laughed
-- 'these pigs, these dogs, these betrayers, these Jews, we will
slaughter theme like Hitler did."
As
for children's plays -- dressed as Hamas and Islamic Jihad fighters,
young students would act out killing of Jews. In his teens he left Khan
Younis and Gaza to live in Israel, serving as a security informant for
Israel, warning when terrorist events were to take place. Still Israeli
Jews suspected his motives and distrusted him, despite that one Jewish
Israeli decided to mentor him. Suspicions led to arbitrary arrests and
the bureaucracy's unwillingness to allow him to convert to Judaism.
"Yes, it would have been easier not to be Jewish."
"Sometimes
you feel hungry and you want to eat or you are thirsty and you feel
thirsty and you want to drink -- it's what yo feel. That I am different:
I am connected to the Jewish people."
"I wanted to be a Jew because I chose life. I chose love and not hatred. I chose love, not darkness."
In
making the decision to leave Islam and embrace Judaism knowing the cost
-- that he would be viewed as a traitor and worse by his family from
whom he had distanced himself; from his community, which he had
rejected; from the culture in which he had been raised, which he found
inhumane and rejected; he was alone, an apostate. He was also living
illegally in Israel and in dire poverty. When authorities in Israel
discovered his presence, he was returned to Gaza.
There
he spent months in a Gaza prison, beaten, electric-shocked,
psychologically abused, and starved. He eventually escaped Gaza through
Egypt, went on to Turkey and finally re-entered Israel on a Palestinian
Authority passport. At the time of the Oslo Accords -- now Dor Shachar,
an Israeli Jewish convert taking on an Israeli name -- he expressed his
belief that Oslo constituted "Israel's greatest mistake",
convinced that the compromise evinced by the Palestinians had
metastasized to Jihad. And indeed, one Intifada followed another and
with them terror attacks.
When
Israel took the unilateral step of leaving Gaza, uprooting thousands of
Israelis, to leave the Strip in Palestinian hands, he was dismayed,
forecasting what would occur, and what in fact, did happen, with Hamas
taking over the Gaza Strip from the PA in a wave of murderous assaults.
His warnings to senior Israeli officials were ignored. When in 2006
Hamas was elected in a victory campaign and took up governance of Gaza
he watched as cement and iron meant for construction were waved through
the border by Israeli guards, enabling an extensive tunnel network for
weapons storage and terrorist-operatives haven.
"Between
Hamas, Islamic Jihad, Qassam Brigades, and any other terror group, and
most Palestinians in Gaza, they share the same ideas about Jews."
"And they say, Hamas will raise our head, and they will rebuild Gaza again'."
"I
will tell you what will happen in the West: the worst. Look what's
happening in Europe. It will happen in Canada and America. You'll see
chaos."
"In Canada, you can cry out in the streets -- and say to the prime minister, 'they go, or you go!"
"I walked in my truth in order to raise our children in shalom -- in peace -- to live."
Dor Shachar, Israeli-Arab Jew
After
the October 7, 2023 atrocities, as he saw Palestinian civilians joining
the rampage of 6,000 terrorists from Hamas and Islamic Jihad, the PLFP
and Fatah overrun the kibbutzim in southern Israel, his misgivings went
even deeper. His message too the West is that 'Allahu akbar' honours
Islam. "The
West doesn't want to believe it's a war of faith. People in the West
are afraid, and they're nice about it, because they are afraid, or they
don't want to accept reality. The Israeli army must control Gaza [to
prevent additional October 7s.]"